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What an episode! The whole time, I was worried about her because she was so alone. Lived alone on a basement floor (at least she and we were spared a scene of her falling backward down those stairs she had to struggle up!), and essentially had grown up without parents. It seemed as if she was a child of adultery, so her mother and father had never lived together and she was shut out of his real family life. And she couldn't  live with her mother till there was no alternative, because her mother was "traveling"? Eh what? So many really awful people on this show have been surrounded by loving, caring, enabling (if misguided) parents and partners and other relatives, and she, who deserved so much better, had such a thin, iffy support system.

And she didn't just have an episode or two of childhood molestation: she had an unspeakable POS who groomed her, raped her and tortured her for YEARS. With nobody to react appropriately when she told! But the way he (hooray!) ended-- what a story! She's at the bus stop, her rapist/torturer drives by in a car and smiles at her, she raises her eyes and starts her habit of praying for his death... and the bus hits his car and kills him. WOW!! If this were written as fiction, a lot of people would grumble about it being too incredible. And then she felt guilty about it. Oh, Kelly, no. You needn't have felt guilty about it if you'd killed him personally with a hammer.

Yes indeed, this episode showed Dr. Now lovable as never before. Starting with the taxi scene, where he tried to help pull her forward. I felt for him as well as her when he said it would be awful if she fell down between the seats, and then she did and it was awful. And then "Can he do this? Won't he hurt himself?" Then he was so gentle with her thereafter. I was very relieved when he sent her to the hospital and to rehab, so that she'd benefit from the magic of having to be on the healthy diet right away and lose a lot. The giant hamburger in rehab-- noooooo! But she got over that and lost over half her body weight.

I started to fear early on when she was silent and Dr. Now did many more than usual of the voiceovers, at points where the poundticipant usually does them. "Did she die?" I thought. Then I was relieved when we heard from her again. BUT...!! There was a reason for the paucity of her voiceovers; we got the sad news, right when she was on track and taking steps to finish college. I profoundly agree that it was excellent that if her health conditions meant she had to die, she died, suddenly, while she was hopeful as, perhaps, never before. And that she's now in a better place and full of joy.

But (in the Christian paradox: even when you believe in Heaven you cry about the sadness of a death like this, as even Jesus did) this was the first episode of the show that made me actually cry. Others were sad (Robert! I think he was actually the poundticipant who lost the most, even without the surgery, largely because he had one of those huge lymphedemas at his waist removed; down 500 pounds on just that and diet when he died) but this one brought the tears. And reading the Live Chat and this forum brings them back. Glad to have you guys to connect and sniffle with.

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